So today is actually the first of December 2016.I won’t lie and say that am happy that the year is about to end. The truth is that I really wish I could have a do-over. I still have so many plans and projects that are yet to see the light of day. I vowed I was going to buy a car this year, but am still riding my legged Benz with style. I thought I was going to meet le boo and have him pop the million dollar question, guess what I have no le boo not to talk about every other thing else that comes with commitment.
I tried out so many business opportunities but none of them worked out. What about the countless interviews I went for? Companies sent me interview invites when I didn’t even apply, and they never got back to me. Am still at my old job even though I boasted about leaving in March.
Last night as I lay on my bed and took stock of my 2016, my heart broke into a thousand pieces. I couldn’t even sleep. Several unanswered questions popped through my mind over and over again. Did God abandon me? I thought we had a deal? Is there something am missing? Is something wrong with me? Am I not attractive enough? People are achieving their dreams around me.so I just wonder, why my case seems different?
As I pondered on 2016 and everything that has happened this year. I remembered this hymn we sang while I was in secondary school.
Please, allow me to share the lyrics with you
I have an anchor that keeps my soul
Steadfast and sure while the billows roll;
Fastened to the Rock which cannot move,
Grounded firm and deep in the Savior’s love!
Then it occurred to me, that it didn’t matter that I did or didn’t achieve “anything” in 2016.I am alive and well, I have all my body parts intact, I might not have moved much but am not the same person I was last year. I might not have been able to buy a car but I wasn’t involved in any accident of any kind.
Even if there was an accident and I was in pain, am not dead, my business proposals were not accepted but are not hungry, even if I were broke to the point of selling my personal effects, I am not dead, am still surviving. The icing on the cake is the fact that am not the owner of my life, I have a sure anchor that is steadfast even when the storms of life seem to overtake me.
I still believe that all hope is not lost. I have made up my mind to enjoy this season, I will attend as many ends of year parties and thanksgiving services as I am invited or not invited to.
I hope you take the cue from me and enjoy yourself because despite everything that you think has happened to you, a living dog is better than a dead lion.
On this note, I want to joyfully welcome you to December 2016, it’s a good time to have fun and celebrate the gift of life.
Happy new month lovelies!!